Unlocking my self-love compass
Lately, I’ve been trying to listen to my body and do more things that bring me joy. I noticed even small things make a great difference. Like
Drinking more ginger tea with lemon and honey
Getting comfy lounge-wear to work from home
Taking slow walks in nature
Consciously breathing through panic attacks that I still get at night
Working out and eating mindfully
Taking the pressure off the deadlines
Thanking my body every day & taking the time to heal
And I can see my body reacting to this new wave of self-love and self-acceptance with slowly getting stronger every day. Baby steps and still a long way to go, but my creativity and strength are bit by bit recovering and I am beginning to gradually feel my “normal” determined self again.
Yet, I won’t go back to the self-destructive modus operandi. I still get depressed when I realize how I was treating myself all these years, being my worst critic, never being content with myself, never having a single word of praise or feeling of satisfaction no matter what I achieved.
I can’t re-live the past, but I can make sure this won’t repeat in the future.